To be quite honest, I never really understood why bloggers thought it was necessary to announce they were taking a break. Why they had to make it so official and why they couldn't just post whenever they wanted was beyond me. I think I get what the dramatic announcements are all about now. My guess is it's a way to officially let yourself off the hook, set yourself free and eliminate the feeling of pressure when it's been a while since your last post.
Even though I haven't been posting nearly as much as I want to, I'm always thinking about it. Always thinking of new content, considering my next post and getting down on myself when I choose to do something else over blogging. Feeling bad that I haven't developed a new recipe in a while and guilty when my weekly meal plans are boring and uninspired.
The truth though, is that I love blogging! I love what I've created with this little space and how it's changed and developed over time. I'm overwhelmed though, and something's got to give. Time to reset! Life lately has been a lot. It's as if I'm spreading myself too thin and not applying myself 100% where it matters most. When I can't juggle everything at once, it feels like I'm letting myself down. Maybe it's also just a case of "working mother's guilt", but Mamma needs a break and this is one area that I can easily walk away from for a bit.
A while back, a friend of mine posted this excerpt on Facebook (which I'm assuming she got from here):
"The women I walk with feel so much pressure to be everything, all at the same time. I feel it, too. What I mean is we feel like we need to be capable and beautiful, well-read and well-worked-out, with perfectly designed homes and meaningful spiritual practices. We have to be social and creative, ever present with our kids and intimately connected with our husbands, active in our communities and articulate about world events.
But to do all that would take ten women. And we’re not all made that way. Some of us are made to be dreamers, and what that means is that we forget the details sometimes. Some of us are made to create beautiful homes, but it means we don’t read every big new book that comes out. Some of us love to run, but can’t cook to save our lives. And that’s how it is to be a person—human and wonderful and limited, frankly."
For some reason this stuck with me. This is SO something I can identify with, as I'm sure many other women can as well. I took a screen shot when it was posted and I look back at it quite often when I need to remind myself it's okay and often necessary to take a step back and just be present.
So while I'm out in the real world taking a break and practicing the art of being present, I'll certainly miss this place! The hope is to return with a fresh new perspective sooner rather than later. In the meantime, make sure you're following me on Instagram! Bye-bye for a bit Blogland!